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it's cold. maybe it should rain today. i hope it does.......it seems like a rainy day. hmmm hmmm hmmm.
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[21 Oct 2002|08:39am] |
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i've feel like i've changed. i don't know how, maybe it's just one of those things that all your friends notice but you have no idea. anyway,
i feel bad for saturday night. it was an up and down thing all night. first of all, the golfer dudes party was great.......then all of a sudden like at 12 he decided to kick everyone out. that was a bitch because it's still early, and we had shit to do. but everyone desides to go back to the beach (shock! where the fuck else would we go)......ali's all pissed at something, whitney's shit faced, so clint and her get into the back of jasons car. i get in along with daniel who is shit faced too. so we start driving down the street, and stop for a sec to talk to gabe, when all of a sudden stupid ass josh get's on the hood of the car....i had a baaaaad feeling about this one (but who wouldn't, right?) as we stop to park josh jumps off and get's his foot ran over. smart one......
he refuses to go to the hospital and he is going into shock.
but eventually he goes. good job.
while whitney is talking to clint, i leave to get something to eat with ali, gabe, and athena. thank GOD calimas was still open late on weekends. we ate, bought cigarettes and left. i had fun.
then we get down to the beach and there is this fucking jar head that starts trying shit with everyone. everythings fine then he has to tell athena and brittany to throw down. so they do. he calles athena a bitch and get's his ass beat by two chicks, and almost gabe. everyone leaves.
we go to the park, smoke some more, have fun. then fucking whitney has to leave and i had no idea where she was, then she calls and leaves a message to tell me to go home. so i go and this is starting to put me in a bad mood, first of all because she's the one that leaves, and then calls and tells me to come homelike i'm her little fucking kid. i get there and the first thing out of her mouth was "where have you been!" in such a bitchy way that i wanted to sock her. i told her that i wasn't going to sit there and listen to one of my friends, especially if there younger, bitch at me for something as little as this like they were in charge of me or something.
she is really starting to get on my nerves now. i'm realizing a lot of shit.
there was no point to this, i'm gonna go.
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[17 Oct 2002|10:05pm] |
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god, i wish i could be pissed off at something right now so i can just blow up and go off on someone. i feel frustrated, but i have nothing to bitch about fuck fuck fuck. i need someone to really piss me off like whitney did on saturday night so i could take this shit out on something that's worth it. i could bitch about not having weed, but it's not serious cuz i'm still stoned from earlier today. fucking A this is getting on my nerves.........i'm going to watch tv.
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[14 Oct 2002|08:22pm] |
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*the only waaaaaaaaaaay
you'll ever knoooooowww
is to goooo
is to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
still love this song. friday night = party in escondido
saturday night = party in vista
sunday = recovery from friday and saturday.
i had fun.....and yes, i finally got laid. just to share. i have school tomorrow. damn. but at least i have all day to do absolutly nothing. nothing = sleep & a lot of pot. yay! there's only onr thing about this weekend that sucked. and that was whitney all over gabe. this wouldn't piss me off, but it's the fact that she hooked up with this guy we met saturday (jonathan) and then later after she did that she was all about to fuck jon. then, i don't know what was up with me and gabe..but something was going on there, and we were about to leave and sitting in the car, I WAS ON GABES LAP, we were doing our thing and she comes up and asks him to start biting on her neck. the next thing i know she's all up on his shit and about to fuck! i was pissed. jon noticed this so he rubbed my shoulders and then whitney got all pissed at me because "she wanted jon, and i was taking him away". this really wouldn't have pissed me off, i mean i could care less about how many guys she's with, it's all in good fun, but she totally contradicted herself because she told me that all the guys she has gotten with, or wants to get with......i take away, or some bullshit like that. that shit happened twice.....she fucked josh, and i kissed him, big fucking deal! he's my friend, and he's a ho, not like half our friends haven't got with him.....and this other dude that gave us a ride home....i kissed him, i was fucked up, oh my god like i could read her mind that she "liked" him. anyway......i got off track. i'll bitch more about this later.........i need to smoke a bowl. i'm not happy anymore. i'm changing my mood thing.....it used to be happy.
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[08 Oct 2002|02:54pm] |
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i didn't think it was possible for a person to consume that much alcohol and still be allowed to be alive. thank god for pot. and this weekend i had a shit load of fun. i haven't done that in a while. i just wanna say i love living in california! to be specific, i love living in oceanside! no better place. and this song kicks ass!!!!!! my new favorite song.
~one more minute
the beach of san diego
one more minute~
~one more minute
the beach is where he go
one more minute~
~one more minute
we kick it by pool side
one more minute
or down by the oceanside!~
time to go.
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[04 Oct 2002|01:02pm] |
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I HOPE YOU FUCKING CHOKE DAVID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[03 Oct 2002|08:32pm] |
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here to stay - korn |
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i'm going to go to that korn concert. i'm determined.
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[03 Oct 2002|03:14pm] |
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i'm missing out on going to Triple Crown today cuz my weirdo of a grandpa is sick and he can't take me anywhere.....and grandmas at work.....and they think i'll run away if i take the bus. jolene can't pick me up cuz of her hands. and every one else i know is already down there or doesn't have a car. except for meleke, but he's weird.
friends + weed + hot skater dudes = a hellofa lotta fun that i'm missing out on......we'll go tomorrow. wanna come?
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[02 Oct 2002|11:40pm] |
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~she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and....blah blah blah blah blaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh~
this song reminds me of whitney. she listens to it enough. i just got done talking to her as a matter of fact, and she was listening to it. now it's on again. gin's gross. i looooove vodka. and i told myself i wasn't getting drunk anymore. i lied.
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[02 Oct 2002|05:34pm] |
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mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.........memphis is cool!
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[02 Oct 2002|02:11pm] |
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arials - system of a down (they kick ass) |
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did i smoke on saturday? can't remember. so it's been a while obviously. besides yesterday. pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot pot.
i'm bored. i think i'm going to call memphis and tell him to get his ass over here with some of my kind chronic.
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[30 Sep 2002|10:48am] |
gimme some hard core drugs before i shoot myself. don't think i won't do it. god i'm such a fucked up person.
let's go to the beach. yeah?
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[29 Sep 2002|10:43pm] |
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i can't do it!!! no way in HELL am i going to be able to quit smoking weed for a month. not happening. i want it so bad right now i can taste it! i told whitney i would quit for a month starting october 1. ha! no. i'm thinking about it right now and i'm going crazy. i need to smoke something. no cigarettes! no pot! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i'll go take something and try to go to bed. if i don't have anything to smoke in the next two day's i am going to be the biggest bitch on this whole planet.....this is what addiction is. of course that's nothing new.
i want some coke. i want some acid.
i'm going to bed before i o.d. on something.
(noticed that mood swing from like, a second ago?)
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[29 Sep 2002|10:15pm] |
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this weekend was fun. me and whitney met 5 new people on thursday. then on friday curtis and two of his friends came over. only a little bit of the time sucked when whitney got all pissed and made me make all the decisions for all of us. but that didn't last for too long. i don't take anything to heart. or nothing that you can get over in like a day or something.....but anyway, curtis and his friends wound up staying the night. then on saturday i wasn't allowed to go anywhere.....and whitney slept all day from all the pills she took the night before (that shit is soooooo much fun!)...so i left anyway. me and curtis went to the beach. i saw danielle and shayna! i missed them, so that was fun. clint got us fucked up....and so did curtis. but i didn't see gabe :'( boo. but it's all good cuz i saw geoff and i haven't seen him in like more than a week. but yeah it was fun. whitney missed out cuz she slept all day. poor thing.
i'll leave.
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[29 Sep 2002|04:10pm] |
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my grandpa's moving around the house......it's making me nervous.
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[26 Sep 2002|09:28pm] |
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i'm bummed. i want to go back to oceanside high. that stupid bitch had to kick me out over something i didn't do, but oh well.
i haven't seen gabe in a week....well maybe a little more, like a day more or something. we went to the beach, but we didn't go down where we usually do because...stupid shit. and i wanted to see gabe. i haven't seen curtis in three weeks. and i got free bud today! yay for drugs. and i'm going to go untill i have something interesting to say. i'll go smoke pot and then have something interesting to say, but then i'll forget.
*i am jacks looser personality*
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[26 Sep 2002|08:43am] |
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and i just realized it's way too fucking early in the morning and i'm going back to bed.......after some pills.
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[26 Sep 2002|08:15am] |
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ok.......this is the last time i'm going to do this shit.
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